I always burn the Grilled Cheese
I’m not
a great cook, but I’m not the worst either. There are many things I can cook
with ease, but then there’s the Grilled Cheese. Ever since I can remember, I
burn the Grilled Cheese. One of the simplest things to prepare and I always
ruin it. No matter the situation and no matter how careful I am, I always burn
it.
This is
how I feel with relationships. Something that seems so easy to some people is
one of the most difficult things for me. No matter how good it is or how
wonderful y a girl treats me, I always find a way to ruin the relationship
sometimes intentionally and sometimes not.
I’ve
been in great relationships and I’ve been in horrible ones. I’ve done many
things imaginable to ruin a relationship. I’ve cheated, I’ve lied, I’ve been
too honest, I’ve been smothering, and even been neglectful. Nothing seems to
help me “make it work.” It seems like every girl I’ve dated, I choose to be the
opposite of what she wants.
I recently
met a wonderful, good-looking girl who goes out of her way to make me feel
special, but I cannot seem to commit myself to her because my heart is
somewhere else. She seemed understanding of this at first, but it seems like
the cup of her frustration is soon to be filled and it will runneth over. Once again, I managed to burn the grilled
cheese. As wonderful as this girl is you may think it would be easy to “make it
work” for once, but it is not. All I had to do was pay attention to her, and I
did not do that.
Don’t
get me wrong, this is not a post to fish for pity or anything of the sort. I
don’t expect any, “hang in there buddy, you’ll find the right one soon” kind of
comments (nor is what this post is about). The reason for me writing this is to
show that no matter how hard you try, relationships and “love” can be ruined in
the blink of an eye. If you say one lie too many, your partner will cease to
trust you. If you act too jealous, your partner will become annoyed by you.
Now,
how can someone like me, who has ruined more relationships than Ted Mosby, give
relationship or love advice? Because I have failed. Every successful person in
the world knows you must fail many times before you finally succeed. There is
one girl I constantly see… she is not my girlfriend nor do we intend on being
in any kind of committed relationship with each other, but we have had more ups
and downs than the stock market. I have learned more from failing multiple
times with this one girl than I have all my other relationships put together. I
learned this: when love exists, the grilled cheese will be delicious despite
the burned parts. Love is not about building a perfect relationship for the
world to see; instead, it is about learning to put up with each other’s shit
and find a way to be there for each other when their life is literally in a
mess.
I’ve
learned to appreciate the grilled cheese: despite the burned parts on the
outside, the inside is always cheesy and delicious. Things are not always what
they seem. Take time to appreciate the grilled cheese.
